Diesel smirked as he made his way to the diesel works, so James had a little secret crush? Who could the lucky engine be? Better yet, who was the lucky male engine? Because lets face it there are more male engines on the Island than female's.
While Diesel may not know what love is, he knew the basics of what it was, but he didn't know engines and Diesels were capable of actually having feelings for someone else, until now anyway.
Then he remembered something, a few days ago that annoying blue tank engine had to be sent in for repairs, and he had to do the job of sorting out the coaches for Gordon and Henry's trains, he remembered two men walking on the platform holding hands, both with a small smile on their faces when they looked at each other, then they gave each other a quick kiss before one of them went onto the express coach. It was the most hideous thing he had ever seen in his existence, it disgusted him that those kind of people were even allowed to show affection or even have a relationship like that, it was so...wrong.
He wanted to ruin James after an incident back in the summer season, this looked like the perfect chance to do that, not only would he get to embarrass James about the fact that he might be gay, but he would also get to see James' crush turn him down, saying that he did not like him that way and destroy all friendship/ties they had together, oh yes he was looking forward to his revenge, but first he needed to see who the engine was that James fancied.
He cackled with glee.
As James made his way to the sheds after a hard days work, his mind began to replay the talk he had, had with The Fat Controller as well as sorting out this 'crush' thing, his owner had not been lying when he said crushes don't go away like when he needed repairing, it could either get bigger and developing into love, or it could leave over time, it was that simple, but James had a feeling that this was more than just a crush, but he couldn't tell what it was just yet.
So was he going to forget about it? Or was he going to engine up (man up?) for once and confess to Edward that he liked him? He felt his boiler cringed in pain at the thought of forgetting Edward as well as leaving the Island.
That's never happened before James thought to himself, maybe this crush thing was worse than he thought.
"James?" called a voice.
James cried out as he slammed on his breaks out of reflex and causing him to screech to a halt, oh great, it was him.
Edward, who had just shunted some trucks when he noticed James was right behind him but on another track, he looked worried, confused and seemed to be in thought.
Now Edward was more worried than he had ever before as he had never seen so many expressions on the red engines face at once.
He waited till the engine was way in front of him but still in hearing distance before he called out "James?"
He was shocked when James cried out in surprise and slammed on his brakes, hard, now Edward was even more concerned.
He chuffed up cautiously to James as if he was a scared animal until he was level with James, silently thankful that he was on one track and James was on another.
"Are you okay James?" Edward asked, hoping for James to respond or even look at him.
James just kept on looking forward or at the scenery around him, anywhere but Edward, that stupid feeling in his boiler had come back again 5 times stronger than it had ever been before, it was like he had no control over his emotions what so ever.
The blue tender engine watched James bite his lip and darting his eyes everywhere but himself, and for once in Edward's life, it scared him. Did he do something wrong? Did someone threaten James? No that can't be right, James wasn't the kind of engine to back down without a fight (as the saying goes anyway).
"Edward" James whispered at last "please leave me alone" he felt his eyes tear up and without looking back he puffed away as fast as he could, trying to keep the tears at bay.
Edward could only watch on as his friend leave, if his concern was bad before it was even worse now, James never said 'please' unless he had an accident and feeling sorry for himself. For him to have done that now clearly told him half of what he wanted to know.
James was scared of something emotionally, and he was going to do what ever it took to get the James back to the engine everyone knew, loved and cared about.
James hoped that no one had returned from their work as he made his way to the sheds, he didn't want anyone to see him in this state, he froze in fright though when he heard a familiar whirring sound that could only be one thing, a diesel.
Unfortunately it was 'the' Diesel, and he had just got onto the turntable and was now turning to face James' rail, blocking him from getting in his shed.
How did I now see him before? James thought in shock as he stopped at the edge of the table but far from Diesel as he could.
"Get out of the way Diesel" James growled, but silently cursed his voice for breaking slightly.
"Hm" Diesel pretended to think "no, I wont"
James growled "I am not in the mood for tricks and lies, especially from a diesel now move aside"
"Oh sure, if you want me to tell the others about your little problem that is" Diesel smirk went wider.
"What are you talking about?"
"I think you know exactly what I'm talking about, you have a crush on someone, an engine to be exact" he was pleased to see James jerk back slightly, the shock shown clearly on his face "is this engine by any chance, a tender engine?"
"I said its none of your business so shove OFF" James was practically shaking on his wheels, his breathing becoming fast that he was close to hyperventilating.
That is until he heard a familiar deep whistle.
"Diesel" Gordon called out in his usual deep and bossy tone "this shed is for steam engines, not greasy oil diesel's so go away"
Never before had James been so thankful for Gordon to appear, he saw Diesel look at Gordon with a sneer before snorting "Pah" then turning to himself "this isn't over James" he threatened before turning to another rail and leaving the sheds.
Both engines watched the Diesel whir away, Gordon was about to ask James what that was all about when he saw something that made him concerned and something he had never seen in his life. James was shaking as if he had some bad coal and tears were escaping like a waterfall and flood together, he had never seen the glamour engine so out of character before, no engine should be in this much pain even for him, and just like Edward this scared him though he would never out right show it.
Getting behind James, Gordon carefully buffed behind him and pushed him onto the turntable, he got off and waited for James to turn round before pushing him into the shed before going into his own, none of the engines knew this, not even James but Gordon saw them all as brothers, sure he boasted a lot about him being the fastest but that was what siblings did, they argued, complained and soon apoligize for being an idiot. He remembered the first time he was actually concerned, James had got into an accident and crashed into the same cow field he had done before when he had first came to the Island, anyway when Gordon had seen the state of James he felt terrible and worried that James may never work again since his front wheels had fallen off, from that moment on he had decided to watch over James as well as Henry, even if they never knew about how he fet for them.
James never noticed Gordon moving him or settling in, in the shed beside him, he didn't care that he was showing his weak side, he was tired of this, he just wanted these feelings to go away, he wanted to be normal.
Thomas and Percy had just returned from a hard days work of shunting and running the branch line when they felt a funny sensation in their boilers the moment they got near the sheds. Something was clearly wrong, they may act immature at times but they were not that stupid when it came to serious things like this, but when they looked around the place nothing looked different, nothing was out of place or damaged so what else could it be?
They looked at the sheds and realised that Gordon and James were already settled in for the night, the funny feeling in their boilers doubled the feeling the moment they looked at the tender engines, the problem was coming from them.
Gordon heard the noise and opened his eyes, he saw that it was cheeky Thomas and Percy.
"Shh" he hissed quietly, when he saw that he had their attention he darted his eyes to James' sleeping figure.
As Thomas and Percy took turns getting into their place in the sheds they noticed James has looked even more tired than before, and as they looked closely they also noticed tear stains running down his cheeks.
They both wanted to ask what had happened but one look at Gordon made them keep their mouths shut. The other engines soon came and did the same thing, nobody was able to sleep that night, especially Edward, Gordon and Henry.